I am TIME and I take a toll on everyone. You sacrifice good things to get better whereas the difference between Good & Better is altered. The Attractive has taken the place of Better. A collage of past and present reveals that thin. Looking back and laugh is always easy but it’s me who has the 'LAST LAUGH'.
6th Jan
Puff.. Pufff... !! It is not that somebody is running out of breathe but the uninterrupted supply of nicotine to the lungs, which is brought to you by imported Marlboro Lights. I always feel RELAX and SMOKE has a strong connect apart from the common 'E'. But there seems to be a show of Zero connectivity at this time.
Is it really working? Both the smoke and the watch are eager to quit my friendship. Am unsettled and it’s still showing Eightish in the night since my sixth cigarette. I would have fired both of them on the grounds of unsuitability if they were my employees. I even hardly pay anything to them 'in return'. I’m upset more about the Cigarettes because they had never betrayed me till date whereas my watch always had a bad history.
8:52- Seems to be a test match going on between the hour and the minute hand. Hour hand is playing the role of 'The Wall' and I’m still waiting for my turn. Samples of sincere gossips can only be shown by the well equipped gender with 50% reservations. Their faces were never so irritating before unlike today. I felt like turning and giving them a stern look but here comes the call- NEXT! The same stern look was now on the other side of the door and yes, there was no turning back for anybody now.
Whispering News- "Due to recession, expect no more companies in the campus!"
It’s the last chance for me to be walking on the lobby of the working class. Being a son from Army leads you to a mandatory monetary deficit which could be termed as an Education Loan. It was the first thought to shiver down my spine. What If....? Dekha Jayega, Huh! The consoling thoughts are never away and always come pretending to prepare for the worst case scenario. "It’s very easy to pick pebbles than a rock".
It simply can't happen to me! It’s the time when Confidence is the only Savior but his shine seems to be lost or maybe his counterparts are more powerful. Eyes are still at the door! I was still trying to gauge the expressions of the classmates coming out of the cabin. There was a willing hope to find them in misery and dejection, while walking on the red carpet like corridor coming out of the ‘Mount Doom’. This was the first time when a sad face gave enormous joy and relief. That was the first thing I lost, my best quality- "Innocence".
21st Jan
The josh, the excitement, the enthusiasm; all felt just same as the feeling of having a new girlfriend. One love: one attraction: all sweet: all charming. We tend to ignore everything- advices of the elders/seniors, experiences of veterans/ retired, sayings of philosophers/tycoons. ‘Entry in the corporate world is just like a spoon of salt- First pinch is always exciting, better and it gets bitter and bitterer’. Who cares!
Everything was new and nice- job, city and life. I think everything comes in a package only the time and the addresses differ! We term it as an awesome life and what if a sweet incident happens, just to add sugar to your life. God is always watching but he definitely is celebrating the 'Thanksgiving Day' up there. He wants to give away some freebies today. Finding a beautiful girl near the ‘Kemps corner’ proves the proverbial significance of 'finding love around the corner'. Indeed a Lucky Day!
3rd April
Smiles and laughter are the integral part of a new found relationship and so are the cries and problems. Transformations are inevitable but gradual. Too much of love can change the taste. Sweet transforms into bitterness even before you realize. A two liner hum was the ‘key’ to catch the attention of your beloved and now it was the shout. Finding faults were more interesting than claiming beauty spots. “Start of the Good times always ends with a Kingfisher”(Don't expect the details of the journey from ice cream parlor to a bar).
*Note- With all respect to Mr.Vijay Malaya and Kingfisher- Good Times, the names used were just the acts of an insane mind.
28th August
There are things which are omnipresent but can't be seen and there are issues which are always there but nobody wants to talk about it. The question is- Who's gonna ring the bell. I was always one of the bravest and hence I lost the second best thing of my life- My LOVE!!
28th Nov
After a heart break, life becomes too confusing. And the reasons behind are the adhesives from Fevicol, Feviquick and Dendrite. Time is said to be the biggest healer but do u find time for anything apart from thinking about the past? Even too many solutions for a problem stick you in a spider web. Am I still talking about adhesives?
In the early working days what exactly one wishes to have. A decent paid job, a nice room in a rented flat and some good friends. High salary, a nice owned flat and a family is a distant dream. But even to have a dream of great things is still comforting. Running away from the problem never solves it although that’s the first option on everybody’s list.
Change of the city might look like an answer but the question here is- can you change your soul? New city-New People but the eyes are still searching. Work definitely needs to be worshiped and it demands time but closing the eyes and thinking to have the old times back still feels like the most important thing. Is there a website to purchase a Time Machine?
Feeling lonely & being lonely are different – Magnitude & Degree of separation; Intangible & Tangible. The former is the worst.
Things changed. Passing the time became killing the time. Passion became passive but the past remained same. Expressions changed. Love became Lust. Smiles became plastic smiles but the past remained unchanged.
Enough!
Something calls you back and when it calls- Answer! Leave everything and answer the call!
I answered!!
Old City, Old People but no Old Life! Past is still in existence.
"The Heart No Longer Beats for Anything". It was the third and the worst thing to go.
